Here and now

California Dreams - Whenever I Think Of You

As every month ends, I generally blog about my goal of seizing the moment but I also like to notice all of the things, both mentally and physically, around me. My month is generally designed with keeping busy which isn't always a bad thing. From the outside looking in, that's all that I'm about... work and play. Working hard allows me to play hard and I enjoy the lifestyle that I've gotten used to. There's no doubt about that. My perspective however is viewed a bit differently. Although I tend to get caught up in the fun, it's not always about what concert I have line up or what which city I'm partying in on a given weekend. I find it healthy to pause and just look around at everything. Looking behind will show me the path it took to get to this point. There are mountains that I had to climb to be able to stand where I'm at now. I used to wish that I had done something different to save my past but I realized that changing it would affect where I am today. I'm sure you're saying to yourself, "Well no duh Captain obvious!" but we all know that we can be told something a thousand times but it takes experiencing it ourselves to understand. So in this very moment, I count my blessings alone for having the strength to be here today. Truthfully, the past is the past. It's dead and gone. Letting go of it was one of the best things I've been able to do. Gotta kick the crap out right? It's finally here where I'm up after being down. This past month has been too good to be true. I'm at the point where I'm not out searching for everyday happiness, I have it. It came when it was least expected and literally happened over night. Each month keeps getting better and I know for sure that I have so much to look forward to as the year goes on. This is me living the here and the now and appreciating the people I have around me especially my special someone by my side. I tip my hat off to Vayla for opening many doors. I would have never thought that a drive home from New Orleans would change so much about me. No need to question it because accepting it has been a blessing in disguise. Thinking about how things played out always brings a smile to my face. Just when I feel like I've done enough smiling, I think about these next few weeks will unfold and I'm cheesing ear to ear all over again. If I had two good feet, I'd do my happy dance (reference to Smart Guy).