Sisterly love

Two sisters with great voices. Just two tunes that get me through the work day...


Minh Tuyet - Vang Trang Dem Troi


Cam Ly - Ang May Buon

Every reason to be happy =)

Facebook statuses are really interesting to read at times. Aside from the FML's and 'let me keep you posted with what I'm doing every moment of the day'-type status, people actually post interesting things. The other night, I was scrolling down the news feed and saw a young friend's status as "If they were real, they'd still be there." I actually had to comment on it because it spoke the truth. People always go and say they have real friends and then at the same time find themselves asking.."damn, where the hell are they when I need them?" It's just strange how we put so much trust into people who don't turn out to be the person we want them to be.

On the bright side, I love those who have come and gone in my life. Though it's not high school anymore and we're not holding hands singing Vitamin C's 'Friends Forever', the group that I surround myself with at the time couldn't be any better for me. I have one friend who drove two hours to be by my side when I was deeply ill, even though it would cause some tension with the bf. There's also the infamous 'Amber alert for Daniel' incident when no one was able to get a hold of me... we can thank Myron for that one. Memories aside, I'm looking forward to the new memories for my upcoming birthday. Like my previous blog said, it's going to be a celebration of happiness and good spirit. To be able to spend time with all of my peers from different circles in two nights is something I couldn't ask for more of. There's Biloxi, Baton Rouge, New Orleans, and Mobile. Friends from middle school to those I met through teammates. Some I met randomly I met on spring break and some I went on spring break with. Things happen for a reason and if any one event never happened, who knows where we'd all be? No matter how we met, thanks for everything.

Another classic for me...

Bringing back memories from summer of 04...


Dilated Peoples - This Way

"I wanna a good girl, she want a gentleman
we sayin' the same thing like a synonym"

Bad reputation

Ever had a bad reputation at some point in your life? Normally those labels tend to follow with poor traits and things that turn out to be negative. What seems to bother me is my bad reputation. It's not that I'm a jerk or a douche bag to others. In fact, it's the complete opposite that makes it bad. Yes, I'm too nice. Everyone knows it. I used to not be like this but when you go through bad times and hurt others for acting in such a way, it's like you are so afraid to be that person again that you go over the edge just to show that you aren't. In my case, it's starting to bite me in the ass. I know what needs to be done and that's the great thing about it. Hopefully I get my chances later on and not be passed on (again and again) for having this too nice label.

You're not me...

Lil Wayne - I'm Me

This song never gets old for me.

"Sitting by the window I just stare at the storm
Know I'll make it through it like hair in a comb
Yo, money over bitches, my n*ggas trust my senses
And I will take on that shit as the lord as my witness
And you all have witnessed, but I have not finished
So keep your mouth closed and let your eyes listen."

True colors

For a moment in time, I almost forgot that I had a blog. I wonder if that's a good thing. In these past few months, this blog has been something that I've been able to 'escape' to and put my thoughts into words or post songs that help express my feelings. But for a moment in time, I think I actually forgot that I had a blog. I'm always wondering what my next topic will be about by finding myself typing a memo to myself about what to blog about when I get home from work. Having to post twice a week can get boring and even though my entries may seem nothing but weird or pointless to my readers, it makes perfect sense to me. I tend to have writer's block or often find myself feeling uninspired and the best way around it is for me to go out and LIVE. If I'm out, I keep busy. Basketball. Clubbin. Driving. Enjoying the conversation of someone I know and love. If I'm in the comfort of my own home, I use the world wide web to read and discover new things that are our there in this world. It's great to be productive, especially after so many months of not doing so.

My point is that my mind is finally at a point to where I don't have to blog because it's my escape from misery. If the misery is no longer there, there's no longer a need to escape. I'm where I want to be... well on a one way trip to there. This black/white phase that I'm in is starting to break down and you can see the light starting to shine through. Soon enough, blotches of color will soon start to fill in between the lines of happiness and hope. I've been able to see people for who they really are and it's been great to surround myself with great people. Even those who I've written off have shown me that they are better than they have been or the person I remembered them to be... all in a good way. I've always cherished my encounters with people throughout my life. I believe now is a better time than ever to see how knowing them has made me a better person, someone who's true to themselves and always trying to make a difference because of the difference all of you have made on me.

Don't wake me up if I'm dreaming

I'm finally at a piece of mind with all of the unnecessary things that have been going on in recent months. Well, not finally, but finally posting about it. Each day has become easier to face with new adventures constantly in the making. Keeping busy physically and mentally couldn't be any easier lately than the way it used to be. The only problem is that with the little sleep that my body has every night, i've come to the conclusion that there are psychological encounters that my brain waves make in my hours of sleep and it's something that I can't control. I'm talking about dreams. I don't read into them at all but it's the content of the dreams that sometimes aggravate me. I've heard from people that your brain sorts out thoughts when you're asleep, even things that you force yourself not to think about during the day. It could be complete bull but I wouldn't pass on that idea though. When I end up dreaming about something, whether it be completely random or something that feels lifelike, I find that waking up is the worst dose of reality to start off the day. Imagine dreaming about winning the lottery and then waking up to find that you're swimming in sheets and not hundred dollar bills. It's all a part of life and the unexplainable mysteries of the mind. It's great to sleep and dream of things that we want but sometimes I wish I had the comfort of sleeping for the pure relaxation of it and to wake up and not question what happened behind the closed eye lids.

Peer Pressure

In my almost 24 years of not drinking, I've had to deal with a lot of peer pressure from those from my inner circles to have a shot or even a measly sip in honor of a birthday or just true friendships. Not once did I cave in as much as I wanted to... they all understood that drinking was just never on my itinerary for personal fun. I love when my friends drink and have a blast but I made the decision a long time ago to be different. It's something that people seem to be proud of and I'm glad that everyone understands. Over the weekend, I faced probably the biggest amount of peer pressure and it was hard to refuse. Picture it: I'm in the club with this girl that I'm crushing on and she wants me to drink with her... it was all bad timing and unbelievably hard to explain to everyone who doesn't know about my personal reasons for not drinking. I managed to escape it sort of but I fear for liver when we come back to Biloxi in a few weeks for my birthday. With nothing but drinkers for friends and everyone wanting to have fun this past Saturday, I can't imagine how tough it's going to be to try to refuse the drinks again. Myron is a true friend and ready to down any shot that comes at me. Hopefully everyone else will be there too when the time comes and I can have a birthday that I can remember, soberly =)

Say goodnight...

and go.

Imogen Heap - Say Goodnight And Go

Imogen Heap is coming to House of Blues in a few months. I just bought tickets for TuVy, BaoNgoc, Myron, and me and I don't think I can have any better concert goers than this particular group. Hopefully Maizer will be able to attend as well because she was the one who sent me the Speak For Yourself album and got me into it. It'll be a great night. We'll be packed in there and fighting the crowd to be in the front and ready to harmonize the chorus to 'Hide and Seek'. I can't wait!

Changing things around

With the amount of fun that I had last week at our 2nd board game night, I really wanted to make the next game night big. Well, not big like I normally do it but just big in the sense of how meaningful I want it to be. This time, I want to surround myself with those whom I'm closest to right now and make the date somewhere around my birthday. So, mark your calendars for April 30! I didn't think I'd be doing much around my birthday but finals wouldn't be until another week later for LSU students and I believe most of my friends will be done with finals who attend schools in Nola. It's perfect timing and something I need. Maizer suggested the gathering to have a theme, something I've never done before. The best thing that I can come up with was to make the theme 't-shirt messages'. Anyone who knows me or has seen me out knows that I always have a retro tee or a t-shirt with some sort of saying on it. It's 100% me and I'd love for those who mean something to me to join in on the fun. The message can be funny like 'that's what she said' or insightful like 'life is beautiful'. It can be purchased, homemade, whichever. Time to be creative and we'll have tons of things to celebrate other than my just my birthday.

Breaking the rules?

My friend brought up an interesting conversation with me the other day that I'd like to share and get feedback on. The question that started the talk was, 'is it possible for two good friends to fall for each other after knowing each other for a long period of time?' To give more details, a possible scenario would be two friends who were both off the market at the time and then sees the other go through breakups/ other relationships. Then while both are single and realized that they've both gone through similar situations and want the best for each other, they fall for each other in their own comfort. It's done in Hollywood and I've seen others go through it but they seem to be rare cases. In my experience, if the attraction is there from the get go, you get stuck in the friend zone.

[At this point, let me remind you that I'm single and obviously I have no credibility, =P]

Back to my topic, it sounds nice in theory but wouldn't you think that liking your friend is breaking the rules or stepping over the trust line? In my experience, if the feelings aren't returned, it ruins the friendship. So if one person is diggin the other friend, the thought of how much is the friendship worth to put losing it on the line. If both individuals feel the same way but never act on it because of the fear of breaking the rules, how will it ever go about? Of course we should live life and not be caught up on the small things. Don't go out looking for something, let it come to you... all those cliche sayings.

The top gets higher...

I originally wanted my blog to be named 'save me the rain' since I tend to get silly with the whole Mr. Make It Rain alter ego. But since some retard blogger is doing nothing with that domain, I'm settling for 'the top gets higher'. If you hadn't heard the song yet, here's the official video that Weezy made before he went off for his year long vacation.


Lil Wayne f/ Eminem - Drop the World

Notice Wayne's shirt? Look familiar? Haha. I have the one he wore at the Grammy's.

Burned out

Pandas are over. KCCBR is over. I'm so ready for a break from basketball. No more responsibilities of coaching teams for the time being. It's been a great season for each team but it was more than I can handle. Congrats to my Korean team for their first championship! It was worth the pain.

It's Been Too Long

The Fray - Heartless (Kanye West Cover)



It's nights like tonight or the morning that I'm soon to face that I hate. The thinking. The wondering. The missing. The dreaming. The waking up. Part of me wants to hear it. I want to hear all the things that I wanted to know. Fill the silence with words. Admit your wrongs and I'll admit mine. For now, I have a song, a post-it, and a card to help the time go by. I understand though.